lonely

pregnancy can certainly be a solitary time. i've found that a girl can get pretty lonely at the time when she's technically NOT alone for even a split second. what's that all about? is it that no one can really share in my experience? even those that have had babies themselves? each experience is so individual, and almost impossible to share. maybe it would be easier if i had pregnant friends, but who else is 40 and on their first kid? most of my pals are either not having kids, or have kids who are already in their teens. it was impossible to bond with anyone at the breastfeeding center. we were all jammed into a corner space, plus every other woman seemed so young and, well, not my type. ah, sigh. i need to find friends with babies the age of my baby, right? what if i don't want new friends?? :)